Sometimes

I know I want to say something, to ask for some kind of help, or companionship, because I'm feeling damned low energy and rather down today. Like I got heavy, and grey for some reason. I'm certainly tired and I'm even more sick of all this damned thinking and planning than I have been before!

I realise this state is a big disconnection for me from most people. And funnily enough, it's steady, friendly company I crave. Shit, sometimes I hate where we live, it's stupid to thinkof it as isolated, but then I suppose that's the thing, I could be in a crowd of people, when feeling like this and still be isolated.

Well, time to go swimming - diving, you might say. Bring on the water!

With love

J

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